I am in the worst mood right now. I have argued with my mother at least three times tonight. I am not feeling very practical or very reasonable at the moment. I just want to break shit. I have no direction to my life right now and a fuckload of decisions to make. And I have a headache. I want a fucking cheeseburger. And I'm fucking pissed off because I ugly cried on the way home the other night and I fucking hate that the stupid shit in my life is upseting me. Stuuuupid shiiiit. If I get fucking depressed again I am going to be even more pissed off. And my fucking tent won't fucking dry because the fucking sun won't fucking shine.
I think I'm done with Church.
And done with Jesus.
And God.
And Heathens.
There are no lifestyles that I find appealing right now.
I've been going to bible camp and getting drunk. Not at the same time mind you, but still. It's like I know I'll never be the perfect Christian so why not? Why not fucking swear?
Fuuuuuck. This is going nowhere, which means I'm going to sleep.
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