I'll like you more if we don't get to know each other

Do you ever want to not get to know someone because you like them? Sometimes I do. Sometimes I meet someone who's nice and funny and thinks. The kind of person I could be really good friends with. Often I become friends with this person and I end up thinking they're boring, or mean, or dumb. It's happened so many times that I go into relationships thinking "my desire to know you won't last." I expect that most people will be a disappointment. It's a horrible thing, to be so disenchanted with people. It makes me believe that no one will ever make me fall in love with them. It makes me feel lonely. So sometimes when I meet someone new I don't want to get to know them. Instead I can pretend pretend that maybe that person is actually as spectacular as they seem and maybe, maybe I could love them.